This being human

I am willing to experience this — how to be with one’s own self

This morning I woke up with a whole army of thoughts. Going over a conversation with some friends. Feeling angry of why she said that. Feeling sad at why they think this way. Why do they have this kind of standards. As I was laying in bed, looking at my phone, another thought said I …

This feeling lonely

Journals from October 2018…. some really lonely days……. I wonder how many people at this instant feel lonely in the world. How does loneliness feel to them?  I have realized that at times although alone I don’t feel lonely. And those are the times I feel somehow connected to others or something. That my life …

Insecure or Confident?

I don’t know what age I was…maybe 18… maybe younger, when I heard phrases like “Confidence is the most important thing”, “Confidence is sexy”, “Confidence is the most attractive attribute of a woman” Whenever I had insecure thoughts in my head, which were not uncommon, especially when it came to how I looked, it would …

This being single

For the past 12 years or more, since my last relationship of almost 10 years ended, I thought I’d just meet someone and get married like every woman I know. And although secretly marriage and kids scared me but the idea of that woman who is 40, alone, unmarried, no kids, pitied and judged scared …